I don't know how long it will last but I'm giving up on dating. Correction: I'm giving up on the way I was approaching dating. I love women too much to take some celibate vow out of frustration. I have seen the powerful energy of a transpersonal planet manifested and it can't be ignored. Astrology is a language to make more sense of these major life sequences...they would be happening whether I tuned in or not. How many times have I said this? Sometimes the simplest truths are the hardest to accept.
A major lesson I'm learning is to deal with reality, not superimpose my fantastic conception on women. This takes time...I think it's called 'getting to know someone'. Too many times, I've 'filled in the blanks' and rushed into situations, only to face a harsh reality check. I realized a pattern I had with all my girlfriends: they all seemed to have a promiscuous history, and I wanted to slow them down. Only 1 girlfriend wasn't that way, but on the whole, that was my pattern. Of course, Uranus comes to get rid of limiting patterns.
I've been wanting a long-term relationship but my failed attempts have forced me to consider why. I'm sure Saturn is at work here too...it is separating from a conjunction to my Venus and is a few months away from a return. My narrow view of relationships is being challenged and forcing me out of my comfort zone. At times, I have looked at so many couples, with a good deal of envy...wishing Uranus wasn't in my 7th house right now. But this is what I'm going through, and accepting that is important.
From The Awakening : "To the Greeks, the planet Uranus was Ouranos, the god of the Heavens. Uranus rules over freedom and the expansion of awareness. And it will do whatever it takes to obtain this, even if it means shattering the status quo. As the ‘great awakener,’ its attempts to liberate us are often unpredictable, unconventional and even shocking."
I'm learning that just because a connection or relationship is brief, doesn't mean it can't be important. I'm learning to control my sexual energy, not be at its mercy. I'm learning not to take it personal when women aren't interested. I'm learning to form partnership, instead of ownership. I'm discovering new turn-ons and becoming attracted to a wider range of body types. I'm learning to feel the undeniable electricity of a connection, instead of guessing. I'm learning to enjoy the freedom of non-exclusive relationships more than the anxiety and jealousy that come with it. I'm learning not to limit myself in what type of partner I attract and have more confidence in my attractiveness. I'm learning that I can't have them all and becoming more comfortable with being aroused without taking action. I'm learning that desire isn't enough, there is a timing in all things.
I had typed up all my predictions for September like I normally do, but have decided to do a "blind month". I'm going to come back when the month is over and see how things played out.
