Uranus Conjunct Moon: Part 3 (Choices)

Frustration...it's all a part of this transit. Uranus wants to disrupt limiting and destructive patterns so I can move forward. I have to remind myself, as much as Uranus is "trickster" it wants to update me...because my old software isn't with it. It's like a virus that crashes the old OS to the point you need to install a new one. Sucks that I have a virus but I can either complain or do something about it. And I really have to DO something about it.

I have been a bit lady obsessed lately and need to stop to assess why. What is it that I'm looking for? A relationship? Why? With so much upheaval, it is likely stability. The problem is that, examining my attitude, I am shifting this responsibility totally to external forces. Looking for the relationship, the woman, to give me stability. As if my own turmoil will be eclipsed by her serenity. It is I with the Uranus conjunct Moon, not her.

Vacillating between wanting marriage and children, to contemplating (relative) abstinence from any romantic involvement with women, I wrestle. Neither "extreme" is a solution. I am almost done with the second pass and have another in 2015. I need to think about my future, which I have a tendency to bind or make contingent upon the girl I'm seeing. When it seems I have no prospects, I'm ready to pack up and move. When I have plenty of attention, I want to stick around. Hmmm....

The Moon rules women, the home, emotions, routine, and all of them seem to be in chaos. It has been difficult to make a choice and the choices I've made have been difficult to stick to. Maybe I haven't really made a change in the choices I make, which is why the chaos is still rampant. Am I looking for too much control at a time when I need to allow things to happen a bit more organically? Amidst all this turbulence and confusion, the desire to understand grows stronger.

Take the girl I had been dating, for example. At first, I wanted a relationship. As time went on, I changed my mind but was unsure. I started talking to other people I was interested in but was still open to an exclusive relationship. The other day, we had a talk, and decided to be friends with benefits. I am confused because I am okay with it...in other words, I feel like I should be upset and perhaps jealous she is dating other men. But why? That attitude is so focused on her and not me.

I am beginning to think two things are happening: one, I am learning to be in tune and honest with what I want right now (emotionally) and two, I am learning how to relate to the opposite sex. Part of relating to the opposite sex I feel, is learning to appropriately emotionally invest. There are a lot of beautiful women I will meet, who are unavailable for a number of reasons. Maybe she's a lesbian/not interested in men, maybe she's already in a relationship, maybe she just doesn't like me. Hell, we may even go on a date and it doesn't work out. As I was writing this, I realized my history of reacting to unavailable women has not been healthy. I usually have gotten so caught up in the fact that I can't "have" her, that it dampened any future (platonic) relationship. In other words, I attached resentment to that person. Blame it on Venus in Scorpio

I tend to find a lot of women attractive, so I need to find a way to deal with my feelings without jeopardizing my career, friendships, etc. I need to learn to value myself more as well. Uranus is also a planet of individuality. I have definitely sacrificed my individuality out of fear of being misunderstood, but change...the future, can be difficult to understand at first. Another question I have is: what is to stay and what is to go? For this, I need to take inventory of the past year or two, really considering what has worked and what hasn't. I will search for attitudes I've been reluctant to give up, despite their failure.

What is a successful relationship? This is a question I asked a co-worker around the time I began this blog. I wondered if a relationship had to end in marriage and children in order to be a success. I have always wanted to possess my lovers beyond our time together, even though it has usually been I who wanted to end it. But I can't have it both ways. While I doubt I will be able to change the intensity of my desire, I can certainly change my expectations. Success can come to mean growth and the ability to understand where to direct my affection. I can learn to master this energy instead of giving it a pass to wreak havoc because "that's just the way I am."

July Predictions

Last month had a lot of oppositions and seemed rather hectic. This month is dominated by trines and carries 3 energy, which points to harmony, creativity, and good fortune. My numerology book states: "July is a breakthrough, a time to enjoy life." The above painting, titled The Swing, really sets the tone for me. Lighthearted, romantic and idyllic. I am dating a girl I very much hope becomes my girlfriend. Still no job but I do have my first professional acting gig in a few weeks! It is summer and nature is in the throes of passion. Let's have some fun!

7/3-4 Venus Trine Jupiter
Lazy, indulgent and lucky? I'll take it. July 4th, I mean, its a holiday. Makes sense. Show me the money!

7/9-10 Sun Trine Venus
Venus is energized by the Sun, to create a harmonious sense of self. Great day for any artistic and romantic endeavor.

7/9-10 Sun Square Mars, Moon
High energy, frustration, and conflict. Things come to a head. Could be an explosion, considering the Uranus transit. What sort of explosion? Could be with authority.

7/17-25 Jupiter Trine Sun, Saturn
A star is born. I hit the stage and become larger than life. Not bad.

7/18 Mercury Trine Pluto
A day of profound insight, perhaps even obsessive thoughts. Reminiscing over the past?

7/23 Sun Trine Sun, Saturn
A day of power, recognition and reward. I think I have a show this day. This is a day where I know myself, and have control and discipline.

7/23 Venus Trine Pluto
Obsession, lust, intensity. Sun will be entering Leo and it is an 8 day. A day all about feeling and physical expression.

7/24-25 Mercury Square Mars, Moon
Hesitations about my path...a conflict between my mind and heart. A decision leading to a new beginning.

7/25-26 Mercury Trine Venus
Pleasant thoughts and beautiful places. Great day for being social and having discussion.

7/30-31 Mars Sextile Neptune
Great day for spirituality and reflecting on my life, especially this month.

Juno Reactor

Astrology is like a puzzle you can never truly solve, which is why I love it. There is always something to explore and it imbues your life with this...richness. For example, whole sign houses were a revelation that made a lot of sense for me. Usually, I don't look at any bodies beyond Pluto (in my chart) but I ran across some interesting things about Juno.

Magi Society says: "When it comes to sex, there is no planet or asteroid as potent as Juno.  Juno is the most sexual of the planets and is even more sexual than Venus, Mars or Pluto.[...]It is Juno, and not Venus, Mars or Pluto, that is the primary ruler of sexual attraction and desire. Juno rules sex appeal and sexual charisma." 

This is in contrast to AstroLady: "In the natal chart, the house and sign placement of our natal Juno reveals the kind of person we are meant to marry. While Venus and Mars represent our ideal mate, Juno represents loyalty and attachment. Juno represents what we need in a mate, rather than simply who we are attracted to. Many astrologers have gone as far as to say Juno represents our true love or marriage partner."

Cosmitec sheds more light: "According to Martha Lang-Wescott, Juno represents what goes awry and Juno tests the level of commitment and attitude toward fidelity and marriage. Perhaps, that's why according the Magi Society (a School in astrology) Juno is a sexual "planet" and is symbolic of the mistress, sex without commitment and the one-night stand."

Elsa Elsa says: "A Juno match is one where you see your ideal counterpart to balance your committed nature, but this can also bring out your seriously dysfunctional issues when thwarted in the relationship. If you can stand apart, you can see how this can be ultimately growth-producing."

NeptuneCafe says: "Juno in particular is about the committed relationship between two individuals, generally a man and a woman. Venus is better defined as the love goddess, the ruler of the attraction between the sexes. She inspires people to make love, but is not interested in the business side of relationship, or getting married to have children. Venus inspires an appreciation for beauty and sex; Juno inspires the creation of a stable partnership, a long-term, committed relationship."

Always Astrology: "She has some similarities to Venus, but while Venus sparks that initial attraction, Juno makes the commitment. She sings of soul mates.[...]Where you find Juno in your chart is where you may meet someone that you will remain with for a long relationship."

Cafe Astrology: "Juno represents commitment, marriage, betrayal, give and take in partnerships, partnership itself, infidelity, fairness, and compromise. Juno is enraged with inequalities and shows us where we seek to make things balanced, fair, and right."

It would appear that commitment is the central issue with Juno, which makes sense (Juno or Hera is the wife of Jupiter/Zeus, who is notorious for extramarital affairs). She represents the ideal partner for long-term commitment. I don't know where/how/why Magi Society places such a sexual emphasis on Juno, especially considering her mythology. Sexual agreement is a crucial element of any long-term relationship, but I can't see much of a connection beyond that.

My Juno is conjunct Venus by less than a degree and being a Libra rising, this is something significant to delve into. I am also a Sagittarius, and commitment has been a big issue for me, infidelity or not. I see Juno as another clue in the soulmate mystery, because Scorpio accepts nothing less than a soulmate. So how does Juno add to the conversation?

It reinforces the importance of Venusian values, such as art, sex, material possessions, and anything that really indulges the senses. Compromise is important...someone who dominates and yields. This is all through the lens of Scorpio, so there needs to be intensity and a sense that she is all in for me. A kind of mutual obsessiveness. I want to feel and know she's all mine, that she needs me. Yet, we need to be able to continually evolve and renew ourselves as people. I often overlook the transformational needs of Scorpio, and a relationship that grows stagnant is on its way to being abandoned.

I think that this is where the extramarital affair/infidelity piece comes into play: if the relationship isn't satisfying those Juno needs, you begin to seek satisfaction outside the relationship (like Jupiter). Of course, this responsibility doesn't fall solely on one person. How well are we aware of our needs/desires? The degree to which we understand ourselves is an important factor in finding a great match. 


Getting back to my chart, since Scorpio rules my 2nd house, money/shared resources is going to be an issue. My 2 longest relationships, she was paying for everything. Not something I am proud of but interesting to note. My credit is terrible at the moment, so if I were to get married, it would certainly be part of the discussion. I predict, either she's rich and is going to fix my credit or it is going to be a huge obstacle that drives us apart. If Juno is about balance and rectifying inequality, that makes a lot of sense.

In the end, I am more partial to Elsa Elsa and Cafe Astrology's description of Juno. Long-term relationships aren't pure bliss, there is work to be done and compromises to be made. You have to be committed to the commitment! Venus tells us about initial attraction and bonding, Juno informs us of how we sustain that attraction/bond.

June Predictions

Let me articulate some of my recent realizations in the simplest form. Don't give away your power to people! Stop superimposing or comparing your life to some idealized path and work with that is! Don't give away your power to regret and self-pity, it poisons the present!

I've stopped participating/investing in social media to the degree I was before. Twitter? Gone. Facebook? Still on but way less involved. No more newsfeed quicksand, just a quick check for birthdays and event invites. I don't want to use my psychic energy to prod in everyone's life. I'm focusing on my life. It's only been a few days, but my mind feels clearer already.

Makes sense, that in a 1 month (May), individuality came to the forefront. I recognize lots of things I need to work on, and it's energizing! I'm coming to my own side, not so divided and confused. Embracing a self-worth beyond current circumstances. My path is my path. I'm still here. And it's time for me to win!

Now, coming to the 2 month, cooperation comes to the forefront. The nervous, tense energy of last month tempers and cools. Mars has gone direct but it is a very Venusian time. Mercury goes retrograde and words fail, emphasizing the importance of action. Venus is in Taurus, Saturn (a very tangible planet) is conjuncting Venus, I get a very physical sense from June. Scorpio/Pluto/8th house energy is activated, which always means depth. Also, school will be letting out and there are 2 women I've spoken with who swear they'll have more time then.

If I were to sum June: opposites attract. It is basically a composite of 2 energy and oppositions. Most of the activity takes place within the first 2 weeks. Looking ahead, July is a quiet month. It looks like more of a 'personal' month...reflections, creativity, moods/feelings. This is more of a time to work with others to really create something tangible.

Saturn Conjunct Venus
I wanna get married and have children. Not immediately, but I'm on that level. All the women I've been dating are older by a couple years..or a decade and a half. No matter what I choose, I see it more clearly. I feel very confident dating and all the experience (so far) is crystallized wisdom. Commitment...my body is ready. Oh, I also wanna make a lot of money. Practicality is winning over passion right now.

Uranus Conjunct Moon 
I recognize what time it is. Nothing is a sure go, especially when it comes to romance. It's pretty crazy. I haven't been able to get anything steady going. Looking at all the oppositions and the upcoming Mercury Rx, I imagine things will get even more hectic, chaotic, and frustrating. I'm not gonna complain though. I'm coming to terms with the fact I can walk and chew gum at the same time. So, while a long-term relationship is optimal, short-term relationships may be the soup du jour.

Uranus Opposition Mars, ASC
My Libraness is dissolving into Ariesness! More and more, I'm seeing conflict as valuable to peace building. I'm valuing getting out there and doing it! Not just thinking and talking about it. I'm not allowing how I think people see me to dictate my actions.

Mercury Retrograde
I don't even know what to say for this anymore, except be careful. "Look before you leap."

6/2 Sun Trine Jupiter (4)
Opportunism, optimism and practicality! This is a Monday where I go all out and set the tone for the rest of the week. A lot can be accomplished on a day like this. Expand the infrastructure and launch a new company!

6/3 Venus Opposition Pluto (5)
Opposites attract as Venus and Pluto have tension. 5 energy makes this explode...on a Tuesday?! My 8th house is ruled by Taurus, where Venus will be passing through. I get a very physical sense, even more than I usually attribute to Venus-Pluto transits (which are conducive to lust). The Moon will be in Leo...hmmm, my ex will probably be contacting me. I've been in contact with so many women, it could be any one of them.


6/4 Sun Opposition Mercury (6)
This is interesting, knowing the retrograde is just days away. Someone challenging my views perhaps? As long as I don't talk too much, I'm fine. A great day to be receptive and creative.

6/6 Venus Conjunct North Node (8)
Fated relationship? Nodes are really connected to the moon, which is all about security. Wanting marriage and all, it is easy to see where this could go. This begins an energy ramp for the weekend.

6/7 Sun Trine ASC, Mars (9)
A lot of energy and larger than life personality! A feeling of accomplishment for a week of hard work. I'm definitely going extra hard with this is mind. Ego drives are strong.There is a harmony, a completion.

6/8 Sun Opposition Uranus (1)
A day of surprises. Exploding energy and individuality. The energy from Saturday really comes to a climax.

6/8 Venus Square Jupiter (1)
Talk about super Sunday! Squares always indicate a challenge to productively use elements that aren't in agreement. However, Venus transits are soft by nature and the only real danger is here is overindulging, whether it be women/sex, food, or drink. Energy will be high, so it will be important to not get carried away.
 

6/8-11 Mars Trine Jupiter (1-4)
What a way to start the week! So much energy from the weekend propelling me forward. The 1 energy too? This is a special time, very opportune for anything....wait for it...physical! Just a lucky, optimistic, energetic time. The 10th will be an optimal time for creating. To top things off, Mercury goes Rx on the 8th.


6/10 Neptune goes Rx (3)
3+Neptune=creativity? Just my impression, which looks corroborated by my peers. Heightened sensitivity/awareness and a need to face any areas of life I have been "escaping". A time to lay off the drinking. Neptune will be heading back towards Pluto, emphasizing that need to confront what I may have thrown to the underworld. With all the physical energy running about, this transit is great for turning raw inspiration to tangible work.


6/13 Venus Opposition Venus (6)
Another Venus opposition. It's going to be a physical month! However, 6 is emphasizing the domestic element and Venus-Venus transits are very soft, so it won't have the carnal energy of Venus-Pluto. Friday (the 13th oooh) and the weekend will be beginning. I see myself wanting to relax after the burst of energy earlier in the week.


6/24 Venus Opposition Sun, Saturn (8)
Moon is in my 8th house. Looks like a physical day as well. Give and take, not so quick to retreat, and I will be rewarded.

6/25-27 Mars Conjunct Mars (9-2)
High energy, mirroring the Mars transit a few weeks earlier. This is a major launching point, as there are really no more "big" Mars transits until September. This is the most physical transit of all, great time to start that exercise regimen collecting cobwebs.

6/26 Sun Trine Pluto (1)
Power. Explodes the Mars transit.

Searching...

Apollo wants Daphne and just as he almost has her, she cries out to her father, who transforms her into a tree. Almost! Of course, there's a lot more to that story but I see myself in Apollo's role, sort of.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm searching for Spock out here! Holding onto hope that each planet is just one closer to my goal, I continue to enterprise. How do I make sense of it all? I think this is a basic question astrologers entertain and contemplate daily. It is a quintessential quandary for all mankind that we answer using the language of astrology, no matter how large or small our universe at the moment.

As I begin to confront the reality of choosing a path, my approach to love and relationships takes on a new significance. It feels as if I can't afford to vacillate, "choose it or lose it." One such issue is children. If I want to have 3-5 children, as I have often considered, then at 28, it is time to get started. If I want to only have 1 or 2, more time can be afforded. The issue of children becomes a central issue within itself...is this woman open to having to children, vehemently opposed, or ready to have one tomorrow? Things change and I don't want to overthink but the reality is that it is a serious consideration, at least it feels this way now.

I have thought about astrological compatibility since I first began dabbling with the subject. I have had the privilege of dating almost every sign, so that I have actual experiential impressions to project with. One point of interest has been the role of cusps, as I have had longer relationships with women born on a cusp. Another has been modality, since I've noticed more compatibility with Fixed signs. Some quick stats: 1st* girlfriend Nov. 21 (Scorpio) 3 years, 2nd girlfriend Aug. 22 (Leo) 3 years, last girlfriend Apr. 21 (Taurus) 3 months. I know 3 months isn't as long as 3 years but I'm only 28 and have only had so many girlfriends (lots and lots of dates though).

Constantly in motion, I believe Fixed signs provide the respite to sustain the immense and often scattered energy I put out. Other Mutable signs create a volatile combination that isn't sustainable and all too familiar. Cardinal signs, hmmm. I seem to get annoyed or tired out by them. Just want to reiterate, this is all in a romantic context. I don't want all the Mutable and Cardinal signs coming for my head!

I have 2 dates today, a Scorpio (non-cusp) and an Aries (cusp). It is my second date with the Scorpio, who is a very nice woman. 30, no kids, schoolteacher, a classic beauty. With Scorpios, I never notice an outright spark...it is more of a slow burn. We had tea and took a short walk, no make out sessions. I had a very sexually intense relationship with my Scorpio girlfriend but it took time, lots of trust. Nothing happens quickly with Scorpio, and it always feels very deliberate.

I think this Aries is going to cancel but we'll see. On paper, she seems great. I find her attractive (she was actually my nurse last year!) and we have a pretty fun interaction. I looked at our charts and we're super compatible but that has happened many times before and gone nowhere.

My energy has been wild. Some days, it is very masculine, aggressive, and intense (like last Friday). Others, very still and passive. Today, I feel calmer but that could all change when Uranus is visiting. It is a 1 day, with Venus Trining natal Uranus, which spells newness and excitement seeking. It would be quite exciting to know after today, that I am involved in a relationship that will last longer than 2 dates! Short relationships have been the norm lately

*I had 2 girlfriends before her. My 1st was a Capricorn but I was young and it only lasted a few weeks. My *realer" 1st was a Sagittarius and we had a 3-month long-distance relationship when I was in college. We lost our virginity together and I (we?) was very much in love.

Saturn Approaches: The Fork in the Road

Gone are the days of "good" and "bad" people. Actually, it's less about "people" and more about me. I can no longer delude myself by counting another's wealth and thinking I'm rich. I see 2 paths, clear as daylight and it is time to choose.

I was writing descriptions of the 2 paths but it doesn't matter. That is my own internal struggle. What does matter is the awareness. I think major transits ask questions, whether we understand the language or not. Makes sense why Dane Rudhyar said 'Events don't happen to people, people happen to events," because it is up to us to answer.

For me (lately), there is some responsibility and either someone invites me to party or I invite myself to party. I have to decide how seriously to take my obligations. Yes, I can prep last minute and do a fine job in the morning. But I could also get a full nights rest and set myself up a lot better. Just because you should, doesn't mean you should.

Nowhere have things become more starkly apparent, than my romantic life. I think beyond the relationship itself, considering its impact. It's not just about playing house, its about my mission. I'm asking myself, why do I want to get married? Why do I want to have children? Not simply going along with it because that's what grown-ups do. My mission on this earth, my path, is deciding what relationships I form, not the other way around.

I have Saturn Conjuncting Venus right now, and my aesthetic values have begun to sharpen and crystallize. Above is a sculpture by Gian Lorenzo Bernini, a fellow Sagittarian, and I love all of his work. The image at the top is L'Estasi di Santa Teresa, one of Bernini's masterpieces. I also like Leonid Afremov's oil paintings...all of them. Jupiter is also trining Venus, which would explain the expansion into fine art.

This "fork" effect could also be the result of both Saturn and Jupiter acting on Venus at the same time. Saturn is saying be conservative, Jupiter is saying turn up! I had a similar concurrence last year, except I don't remember feeling so dramatic. A big difference is that both of these are on their "3rd pass:" they were forward, then went retrograde, and now are moving forward for good. The familiarity elucidates the pattern, carving the "path" all the more clearer. I am also only 7 months from Saturn returning, so there is an added sense of gravity.

Will I experience some profound ecstasy a la Saint Teresa? Uranus is asking me about a new pattern as well. What else can I say but stay tuned!

May Predictions

This is a critical month! Unemployment has run out and I need to get working ASAP. Venus energy is running high. Uranus energy is running high. 1 months are all about independence, assertiveness, and new beginnings AKA everything Aries. Mars finally goes direct in the latter part of the month. The weather is warmer. Love is in the air and the students are leaving town. Things get intense from the middle to latter part of the month.

If I were to translate this month to a phrase: Lots of unexpected opportunities and conflicts with women, which results in a new structure. I want to begin a new career and relationship. I'm ready!

Jupiter Trine Venus
Been eating and drinking a lot more lately. Have been more creative and extravagant with spending. "I just wanna party." I want this to translate positive monetarily/career wise!

Uranus Trine Mercury (separating)
May travel more than usual. My love for "rare" words/vocabulary has been sparked. Been playing with language a lot more lately.

Uranus Conjunct Moon
This influence is getting tiring. I better get used to it though, this is just the first pass! It is feast or famine. Sometimes, I get an avalanche of female attention, others, nothing. It can all dissipate in the course of a day. Lots of flings and things that seem promising but go nowhere or abruptly end. Becoming a little annoyed with one roommate and living with roommates in general. Really tough to establish a routine for anything.

Saturn Conjunct Venus (applying)
I have been having thoughts around what works and what doesn't, as far as relationships. Have been getting practical, tangible advice on artistic creation. Everything Venus is getting much "realer," not so daydreamy. Commitment is sexier than usual. Want to see my artistic endeavors pay off, which I know requires dedication.

5/3 Venus Trine Sun, Saturn (4)
I ended up having a crazy day! Met with an older woman (45) and we hung out for most of the day. We definitely got intimate. Then, I met up with another girl that night and went dancing (which I never do)! We ended up making out and stuff.

5/8 Sun Opposition Venus (9)
This is an opportunity to learn more about myself through my relationships with others. Hidden tensions may also come to the surface, especially with Uranus Conjunct Moon in the background. Good day for company and socializing, with Mercury entering Gemini. May bring out more of a philosophical and existential approach to relationships, a day of understanding rather than "action."

5/8 Mercury Opposition Sun, Saturn (9)
Entering 8th house, this is a day of raising lingering issues and engaging in necessary conflict productively. The key will be to not become discouraged with whatever realizations or feelings come as a result of my interactions and conversations with others. With 2 oppositions occurring and Saturn weighing heavier, this may not be a very "pleasant" day.

5/15 Mercury Opposition Mercury (7)
High-strung mental activity! A clash of the minds perhaps? Like the previous Mercury transit, necessary conversations need to take place. Plans may not work out as intended due to scheduling conflicts.

5/15 Venus Trine Mercury (7)
Great day for socializing and communicating feelings. Traditionally, this is seen as a pleasant influence but in light of the concurrent Mercury transit, it may be a mollifier for a not-so-pleasant exchange.

5/16 Venus Conjunct Moon (8)
Uranus and Venus both conjunct Moon in Aries on an 8 day...sounds explosive! It will be the beginning of the weekend, and spring is in full swing. I am going to a Buddhist meeting in the evening with other young folks. There is no way something WON'T happen, with all this Aries energy converging. I doubt something will happen at that meeting, because I won't really want it to.  I will only expect the unexpected...Moon will be in Sagittarius from 15th to 17th, so feelings are expanded and opportunities are plenty.

5/17 Mercury Opposition Uranus (9)
Heavy mental stimulation; excitement seeking. More openness to something unexpected. Things may escalate quickly. 

5/17 Venus Opposition Mars (9)
Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. This is sexual tension at its finest! Due to the cluster of transits occurring in such a close span, I am confident something significant will transpire romantically. As of now, I have no clear-cut romantic interest, although I have been seeking more seriously lately. On 2nd thought, there is a situation with mutual interest that hasn't seem to go anywhere due to scheduling difficulties. In light of the grand scheme of things, this may be a purely physical/temporary arrangement (as everything has been in the last year or so!). Since 9 completes a cycle, this may be the result of something on the 8th.

5/18 Venus Trine Uranus (1)
More excitement on the social/romantic front. Something happens and all signs are pointing to something unexpected and ephemeral. I'm just gonna make things easy for myself and simply remember to enjoy the ride!

5/20 Mars goes direct (3)
Mars won't resume normal pace until early June. May be a time when a period of low-energy and introspection finally begins to yield more in the way of action. Time to move forward. Since my Mars is in Libra, and this is a 3 day, I think there is a significance for me, creatively. A time of clarity, at least until Mercury goes retrograde in June. 

5/21 Sun Opposition Sun, Saturn (4)
Dovetailing Mars going direct, I see a creative climax. A crucial moment, in which I am aware of the structures and limitations that inhibit my progress. I see a breakthrough, perhaps a clash with authority or other males.