May Predictions

This is a critical month! Unemployment has run out and I need to get working ASAP. Venus energy is running high. Uranus energy is running high. 1 months are all about independence, assertiveness, and new beginnings AKA everything Aries. Mars finally goes direct in the latter part of the month. The weather is warmer. Love is in the air and the students are leaving town. Things get intense from the middle to latter part of the month.

If I were to translate this month to a phrase: Lots of unexpected opportunities and conflicts with women, which results in a new structure. I want to begin a new career and relationship. I'm ready!

Jupiter Trine Venus
Been eating and drinking a lot more lately. Have been more creative and extravagant with spending. "I just wanna party." I want this to translate positive monetarily/career wise!

Uranus Trine Mercury (separating)
May travel more than usual. My love for "rare" words/vocabulary has been sparked. Been playing with language a lot more lately.

Uranus Conjunct Moon
This influence is getting tiring. I better get used to it though, this is just the first pass! It is feast or famine. Sometimes, I get an avalanche of female attention, others, nothing. It can all dissipate in the course of a day. Lots of flings and things that seem promising but go nowhere or abruptly end. Becoming a little annoyed with one roommate and living with roommates in general. Really tough to establish a routine for anything.

Saturn Conjunct Venus (applying)
I have been having thoughts around what works and what doesn't, as far as relationships. Have been getting practical, tangible advice on artistic creation. Everything Venus is getting much "realer," not so daydreamy. Commitment is sexier than usual. Want to see my artistic endeavors pay off, which I know requires dedication.

5/3 Venus Trine Sun, Saturn (4)
I ended up having a crazy day! Met with an older woman (45) and we hung out for most of the day. We definitely got intimate. Then, I met up with another girl that night and went dancing (which I never do)! We ended up making out and stuff.

5/8 Sun Opposition Venus (9)
This is an opportunity to learn more about myself through my relationships with others. Hidden tensions may also come to the surface, especially with Uranus Conjunct Moon in the background. Good day for company and socializing, with Mercury entering Gemini. May bring out more of a philosophical and existential approach to relationships, a day of understanding rather than "action."

5/8 Mercury Opposition Sun, Saturn (9)
Entering 8th house, this is a day of raising lingering issues and engaging in necessary conflict productively. The key will be to not become discouraged with whatever realizations or feelings come as a result of my interactions and conversations with others. With 2 oppositions occurring and Saturn weighing heavier, this may not be a very "pleasant" day.

5/15 Mercury Opposition Mercury (7)
High-strung mental activity! A clash of the minds perhaps? Like the previous Mercury transit, necessary conversations need to take place. Plans may not work out as intended due to scheduling conflicts.

5/15 Venus Trine Mercury (7)
Great day for socializing and communicating feelings. Traditionally, this is seen as a pleasant influence but in light of the concurrent Mercury transit, it may be a mollifier for a not-so-pleasant exchange.

5/16 Venus Conjunct Moon (8)
Uranus and Venus both conjunct Moon in Aries on an 8 day...sounds explosive! It will be the beginning of the weekend, and spring is in full swing. I am going to a Buddhist meeting in the evening with other young folks. There is no way something WON'T happen, with all this Aries energy converging. I doubt something will happen at that meeting, because I won't really want it to.  I will only expect the unexpected...Moon will be in Sagittarius from 15th to 17th, so feelings are expanded and opportunities are plenty.

5/17 Mercury Opposition Uranus (9)
Heavy mental stimulation; excitement seeking. More openness to something unexpected. Things may escalate quickly. 

5/17 Venus Opposition Mars (9)
Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. This is sexual tension at its finest! Due to the cluster of transits occurring in such a close span, I am confident something significant will transpire romantically. As of now, I have no clear-cut romantic interest, although I have been seeking more seriously lately. On 2nd thought, there is a situation with mutual interest that hasn't seem to go anywhere due to scheduling difficulties. In light of the grand scheme of things, this may be a purely physical/temporary arrangement (as everything has been in the last year or so!). Since 9 completes a cycle, this may be the result of something on the 8th.

5/18 Venus Trine Uranus (1)
More excitement on the social/romantic front. Something happens and all signs are pointing to something unexpected and ephemeral. I'm just gonna make things easy for myself and simply remember to enjoy the ride!

5/20 Mars goes direct (3)
Mars won't resume normal pace until early June. May be a time when a period of low-energy and introspection finally begins to yield more in the way of action. Time to move forward. Since my Mars is in Libra, and this is a 3 day, I think there is a significance for me, creatively. A time of clarity, at least until Mercury goes retrograde in June. 

5/21 Sun Opposition Sun, Saturn (4)
Dovetailing Mars going direct, I see a creative climax. A crucial moment, in which I am aware of the structures and limitations that inhibit my progress. I see a breakthrough, perhaps a clash with authority or other males. 

April Predictions

So, it is April 1st and I feel invigorated! It is a 1 day in a 9 month. According to my numerology book, April and May of this year are supposed to be the craziest! My mind is very much occupied with a sustainable career in the entertainment/art industry. Everything else...just living. Not very girl-crazy right now, though the prospect of a new relationship still excites me. It is getting warmer and I want to come out and play this year! My diet has taken on much more concern. Overall, I really desire the next phase of my life. I want to experience a level of fulfillment beyond what I've known, in every area of life. I want to live on my own. Really just want to come into my own. I have been making consistent efforts to change my lifestyle, and I have a feeling this is the month things transition for good.

The major celestial influence this year and especially April and May, is Uranus. I feel like it is crunch time. Unemployment will run out soon, so my career has to get started. But I'm not settling. No more jobs. Only something to build a career. Career/money are my major concerns this month, just to give an idea of my direction/momentum. Unless Mercury is retrograde, I usually only pay attention to Sun, Venus, Mars and outer planet transits. Eclipses are sometimes of note to me as well.

4 Neptune Trine Pluto (separating) Things that may have been too intense to sort out before,  become clearer as the month rolls on. I see this as a new level of faith emerging from the struggle I went through before. Like, all the suffering and angst are now raw material to create with. Less confusion, more insight and articulation.

4 Uranus Trine Mercury This is a time of learning...I'm in a much different space than I was in January. I'm picking things up quickly, my mind racing out into the world. Things are easier to connect. Good time for creativity and unconventional thinking.

4/1 Sun Sextile Jupiter (1) Magnanimous feelings and indulgent attitude. I feel like it's my lucky day and anything can happen! I just got paid too...although, I haven't gone too crazy because I have too many bills. My ex from the beginning, I'm talking from back in high school, is supposed to be coming over. A girl I have more interest in, tomorrow. I feel a healthy amount of idealism and feel this month is mine to seize!

4/3 Sun Trine Mercury (3) I'm sure this will be a creative day, full of ideas and mental activity. Keyword will be focus. Great day to reach out and feel my words really aligning with who I am.

4/5 Sun Trine Moon (5) Harmony, warm feelings. It will be Saturday. Good day to go exploring or on an adventure, especially with friends.

4/6-7 Sun Opposite Mars (6-7) Going to NYC this day, riding in a car with other good (male) friends. Will have to watch for ego/control/power scenarios for sure! Game of Thrones premiers later that night! Yessss, who's got HBO??

4/6 Venus Square Sun, Saturn (6) Not ideal for working with others. Considering the above scenario, I will need to really be aware during the road trip, as well as any potential interactions later.

4/7 Sun Trine Uranus (7) I can see this day having a high degree of individualism and feeling rebellious or confrontational. Wanting newness and embracing unconventionality. Maybe a very spiritual and faith filled day, as it would be the day after NYC. A new mindset or attitude towards life.

4/11 Venus Trine Pluto (2) One of my favorite transits, very sexy! It is a Friday and I can see myself either going out to socialize or spending time with someone I like or have history with. I feel like Pluto is very past-heavy, so Venus may resurrect romantic feelings thought long dead. Whenever I see Venus and Pluto hook-up, lust is the first thing to pop in my head.

4/14-16 Mars Conjunct Mars (5-7) This looks to be the start of an energetic week! Although, Mars is retrograde so that could be a bit of frustration. Good week for physical activity. Explosive and virile.

4/17-19 Mars Opposition Moon (8-1) Second half of the week, through the weekend, this could very well spell conflict with women. 8-1 looks like a valuable experience leading to transformation/new beginning. Likely not an optimal time to get involved in new relationships.

4/18 Venus Square Mercury (9) Occurring during the previous transit, any kind of mental discipline or restraint may prove very difficult. Maybe I'm more liberal in speaking my mind, which may stir conflict with the opposite sex. Could also be unrealistic expectations, tension between feelings and logic.

4/22 Venus Trine Venus, Square Uranus (4) Flirtatious, wanting to bust out of old patterns of relationships. Surrendering completely to feeling and disregarding the norm. Sun will be in Taurus, this could be a very decadent time. I get paid this day and may feel inclined to indulge after, what could be, a rough week.

4/26 Sun Opposition Pluto (8) Intensity, ambitions realized. Power is the keyword this day. Who knows what will happen with this one?

4/30 Sun Conjunct North Node (3) Lesson learned. Feeling destined for greatness. I have begun my career and feel I've reached a new plateau of self-awareness. Looking forward to the next phase of my life, with Saturn returning in less than 8 months.

The question is: If May brings a new beginning, how will I close this chapter? I can't do the same things anymore. More and more, I feel the need to kick it into another gear. Success is on my mind but it takes discipline and steady effort to materialize. Patience is a key word, regarding romance. Next month is a lot more conducive to beginning a new relationship, but some groundwork can be laid in this one. Beginning a new exercise regimen will pay off sooner than expected.

Back in Eden

Ahhh what a difference a few months makes! There is a deep transformation taking place but it isn't as frustrating now as it was a few months...even a few weeks back. I haven't been as focused on astrology lately but I'm a little more open now. I have my own laptop, which has sucked my soul away since I haven't had one in 6 or 7 years. I just want to catch up with you a bit and look ahead to the next couple of months.

So, with Uranus conjuncting Moon, my relations with women have become more unstable. Nothing crazy, because I don't really produce those kinds of reactions form people nor do I get too crazy. I hit on ALL the girls at a local Dunkin Donuts pretty much. In retrospect, those were more acts of desperation than calculated attempts to court, if there is such a thing. There was another girl who I was pursuing but that ran flat, as I withdrew due to age difference and framing myself as a sucker (i.e. paying for stuff I don't have to pay for). I hooked up with an ex and may hook up with another ex in the coming week. I really don't care...

My focus has been shifting more and more to myself. I got this book called "The Erotic Mind," which is helping me get more in touch with that part of myself. What are my turn-ons? Fantasies? One major revelation is that some fantasies are just that..fantasies. They don't need to be fulfilled and would cease to exist if they were. Erotic fantasies are not so much "teases" and more of a healthy expression of sexuality and imagination now. This is translating to my relationship with women, as I become more comfortable allowing myself to be attracted without trying to bed them all! Venus enters Pisces next month, which will trine my natal Venus and and Pluto. With the Sun in Aries and spring around the corner, new love is almost inevitable. However, May will be a 1 month (new beginnings) and Venus will join my Moon and Uranus in Aries, so it is more likely to materialize then. Jupiter will also be separating from a square to my Moon mid-May.

Professionally, I've embraced my artist side. This is what I'm here to do. It is scary, exhilarating, healing, fulfilling, everything! I actually had my first acting audition today and didn't do too bad! I got a rush! Been getting into music more. Definitely writing but easing back into producing. Screenwriting is something I've definitely taken on. The feeling I get just typing this is undeniable. This is my life path. I've tried the safe one, it didn't work. Remember? Jupiter has gone direct in my 10th house and is due to cross my MC in May/June (going by whole sign houses).

Health wise, I've been good and bad. Had jock itch for the first time a few weeks ago and it was so gross!!!! I'm battling a sinus infection/cold now. On the other hand, I've taken on the challenge of living a healthier lifestyle. Drinking a lot less and not really eating meat. Lately I've been thinking about doing rec drugs again (ecstasy, shrooms) but they're just thoughts. Neptune is in my 6th house and I'd rather have it in my 5th but happy it isn't in my 7th! I'm thinking of Neptune in its creative sense and considering the 6th is a house of duty/routine/work, makes sense I'm pursuing a career in the arts. Art is one of the few things really motivating these days.

Was that too many details? I definitely left a few out! I'm just glad to be back. Tomorrow I'll take a look at April and make some predictions.

Smile!

2014: Uranian Revolution

To end 2013, from Dec. 14-Jan 4, I had 4 romantic encounters with 4 different women every weekend. No, I don't mean 4 each weekend, but 1 every consecutive weekend. Most affairs, I couldn't see lasting long-term anyway. Then, 2 days ago, my ex...after leaving in the middle of the night to see her "situation" messaged me. I didn't know what to think, I didn't think we would ever talk again. Coincidentally, I had read about Venus retrograde earlier that day, which mentioned old lovers resurfacing.

In the broader view, according to the whole sign house system, Uranus entered my 7th house around the end of 2011. Since then, I have had so many romantic relationships and dates, the longest lasting 3 months. As Uranus gets closer to my moon and ascendant, the frequency of these encounters appears to be increasing. Today, I spoke with my ex about...having a baby. Yes, a baby. I must be crazy.

This is a 5 year for me, numerologically, which holds great change, excitement, unpredictability and expansion. This all sounds very Uranian, except for expansion, which is more Jupiterian (Jupiter just separated from a Venus trine but will trine again later this year and I have gained 30-40 lbs.!) I definitely feel like I'm on the edge of something great, my optimism won't allow me to think otherwise.

I've given up predicting what will occur from 2014's major upcoming transits (Uranus Conjunct Moon, Opposition Mars, Trine Mercury, Sextile Jupiter, Jupiter Trine Venus, Conjunct MC, Saturn Returns, Neptune Trine Pluto). All I know is that by the time the year is over, my life will have changed dramatically. In the interim, I've been keeping a journal and detailing the aftermath. I hope that my vigilance will contribute to advancing astrology and helping others in similar situations.

Down the Worm Whole: Whole Sign Houses

Whoa. After listening to an @astrologycast podcast featuring Robert Hand, I decided to do a little research on whole sign houses. Whole sign houses are the oldest and original way that houses were delineated. Basically, one sign to one house. The Ascendant and Midheaven stay the same...but instead of being used as cusps for the 1st and 10th houses respectively, they are sensitive angles in the chart. I decided to try this with my own chart and my oh my was it an eye opener.

There were 5 shifts: Sun and Saturn moved to my 3rd, Jupiter to my 5th, Neptune to my 4th and Pluto to my 2nd. All of them make more sense then their original (Placidus) positions. I've always been plagued by financial issues, so the 2nd house with Sun, Venus, Saturn and Mercury seemed to make sense. However, in a way, I've made it make sense. It's like the MBTI tests, sometimes we pick the answers of how we want to be, not how we are. Accepting the Placidus house system as law, I've forced my perception to accept it. But now, the earth is no longer flat nor is it the center of the universe. Pluto in the 2nd makes more sense, as it explains my financial issues more accurately.

Intuitively, I've always felt like my Jupiter position was off as well. In the 5th, it makes much more sense. I am an artist, through and through. Neptune moving into the 4th, explains a lot more, especially my relationship with my father (and mother). Sun and Saturn into the 3rd also fits better, as communication is always something I've been very self-conscious about. My original positions weren't outrageously off the mark, and still hold some truth. It is just that with the whole sign house system, everything is much clearer. It is like outgrowing an old eye prescription...the adjustment in perception provides clarity.

I will continue to study astrology but now, I understand that it is more in self-interest. I'm not very interested in doing consultations. I'm also not very interested in authoring or teaching like I once aspired. It is more of an interest and hobby. Palmistry on the other hand, I may get back into..still, a hobby. On to the music and the films and such! This is by no means goodbye...I will continue to write. I am eager to share my personal experiences with transits with everyone!

Uranus Conjunct Moon: Part 2 (New Habits)

To address my last saga briefly, turns out, it was actually my fault. My pattern, my habit, my M.O., was always to worry about my exes safety. Yes, I understand caring for someone is natural but if you always assume the worst for them and act predominately out of that fear, it creates a helicopter-parent-like dynamic. She had called out of work that day...her co-worker was misinformed, I simply reacted to her worry with the worry I already have towards my ex. If I had waited til later that day, she would've likely responded after separating from her...situation. I recognized that even though my intentions were noble, I was acting out the same established pattern towards her and an "event" (Uranus conjunct Moon) allowed me to recognize it consciously.

The Moon, can represent women as well as patterns/habits, and the home, etc. I've started to notice my pattern of interpreting transits. Bias! When it seems advantageous, I want the Moon to represent women. When it seems disadvantageous, I want the Moon to represent everything but women! I "interact"with transits expecting them to deliver what I want. However, when I just "live my life" aware of the overarching themes astrologically, I tend to have more fun! Or I should say, I tend to experience the transit effects more.

This tends to impart an optimism that I normally take for an excuse to not do anything and just wait for things to happen. The mistaken assumption is that something outside myself is going to deliver me money or from whatever I'm going through at the time. Truth is, although the planets are "out there," they're also, "in here." A vibrant cosmos pulsates within! I think that when I live my life without being so caught up in the details of expectations, my inner universe harmonizes more with the outer universe.

To state the obvious, Uranus' effects are unexpected, so thinking that I could expect and control the transit was a mistake. That is my advice to all with Uranus transits, echoing every astrologer I've read so far. Expect the unexpected. Knowing what is going on is certainly helpful but beyond that, you won't know how much has happened until it's over.

Uranus Conjunct Moon: Part 1 (The Vent)

First of all, Uranus cannot be overestimated. Upheaval is not a gentle adjective. 'Unexpected' leaves more room for interpretation but should be reserved for say...Uranus sextile Jupiter. Uranus opposite Ascendant, Uranus opposite Mars, Uranus trine Mercury...I'm experiencing all of the above. Right now.

To say that my experiences with women have been frustrating would be an understatement. I don't lose my cool too much anyway but its been disturbing, particularly in the dating department. I really need to focus on myself, as cliche as that may sound. Dating is highly likely to distract me from my growth process. The universe has made this easy.

A few weeks ago, I got it. I realized that I wasn't having much success romantically because I've been doing what I've always done and I needed the space to change. I was slipping back into relationship-dependency and this time, it wasn't going to happen. Abandoned conversations (online dating), date flake-outs (both me and them), erratic responses (texts from one girl I've dated a few times, the ex). Now it's time to vent about the ex. Don't worry, I'll make it brief.

Cliff notes: I was supposed to meet her just to pay a tab at the store she works. When I went, she wasn't there and her co-worker says she no call no showed and was concerned. I tried to contact her...no answer. She has a history of depression and my worst fear is her committing suicide. I immediately jumped in my car and drove 45 minutes to her house. Saw her car outside, tried calling and again. After calling and texting, I called the police. At this point I'm entertaining the worst possibilities.

The officer bangs on the outside door, gets let in and bangs on her door...no answer. Then he bangs on the front door, and she comes to answer. Immediately I smile, my heart leaps. She's OK! Then her...boyfriend situation walks out behind her. That was another worst case scenario. I shake his hand. Say I just wanted to make sure she was OK, and drive home. INFURIATED.

I didn't care that she was with him. I really want nothing from her, just her well-being. But this feels so selfish and I'm done. I can no longer worry about her. I will continue to pray for her, but I want nothing to do with her. This is the abusive ex that I have been told about time and time again by women too many.

I will have to redefine what it means to be involved. I will have to redefine boundaries. I will have to redefine compassion. Ultimately, these things make me stronger, so I appreciate them. Not so much now but eventually, I'll calm down and be able to encourage someone else in a similar situation.

Uranus shakes things up...upheaval is right on the money. Ironically, I started reading a book called 'No More Mr. Nice Guy' last week. Mars in Libra, I'll go out on a limb and say its the typical nice guy placement. With Uranus opposing it, conjunct Moon, I am in for a hell of a time...